Ever since returning from my holiday vacation in the Bahamas, life in NY has been a bit of a whirlwind. As I sat down to prep some goals for “Create Your Great Life” and “The Empowerment Circle” this year, something inside me said “D, be still for a moment and take a step back.” Last year was all about growth for me, and leaps and bounds mentally, emotionally and physically in my life and business. As 2011 came to a close, and 2012 kicked off with a bang, I decided to listen to my inner guide (as Gabby Bernstein would say) and connect with myself.
My intuition is freaky (and awesome) that way. It sensed that the universe wanted me to slow down and clear some space in my life for something that was about to take form.
A few weeks ago I learned that my Yia Yia (that’s Greek for grandma!) was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. This was a quick and shocking diagnosis and I don’t think I was prepared for it. Yia Yia and I are very close (I lived in her house for 2 years post-college and to date she was one of the best “roommates” I’ve ever had. My family even teases that I’m Yia Yia because of the traits that I embody like her, things I’m proud of like her even-keeled nature, ability to care for others and capable and strong persona.) None the less, this news was a shock. A few months ago, my healthy and vibrant 78 year old grandmother was fine, and now stage 4 cancer? Its been a lot to grasp.
I’m sharing this so publicly because this has been an interesting time for me and I’ve learned a lot. It feels like a lot of things in my life had some advance warning of this, and knew I would need time and space in my life to gather the strength to face the unknowns ahead with Yia Yia. It’s also forcing me to slow down, prioritize and let some “control” over life, go…in order to really be present in the moments to come.
Last week I went down to Texas to see Yia Yia in the hospital. A native New Yorker, she spends the winters in Dallas with family, her grandkids and great grandkids and was there when she was hospitalized and eventually diagnosed. Although I was scared to see Yia Yia in the hospital, it was an amazing few days.
The universe had my back, and took care of everything in my life (work, bills, clients) and there was this glorious space that was present that I haven’t had in a long time. I met my brother and sister down in Dallas, and we were greeted by my cousins, their wives and adorable babies. Their love, and support, coupled with that Southern Hospitality made for an amazing weekend and allowed us to be present with Yia Yia, each other and take in all of the moments without having to think, or stress, or plan, or worry. It was all taken care of. And it was magnificent.
We’ll know more about Yia Yia’s prognosis in the coming weeks, and for now we are praying for ease of mind, and strength in her soul. And I appreciate all of the kinds words, thoughts and prayers I have received from all of you, all around the world.
A planner and control-feign by nature, the biggest lesson for me this week was to “let go.” Letting go, allowing the universe to work its magic, and leaning on others for support created the perfect environment for finding peace and harmony during this uncertain time. Had I not let go, the truly beautiful moments of family, love, laughter, togetherness and strength may have been missed.
Asking for help and love and support is not always easy in life, though necessary in life.
I learned this weekend just how important it is to ask for what we need in life. I experience the magic first-hand and what I received was a beautiful moment in time. I realize that we can’t always find answers to why things like this happen in life, so unexpected. But, what I know for sure, is that had Yia Yia not been sick, we all would not have come together (from New York, Delaware, California and Dallas) to have that experience. And, in a way, this weekend gave me more strength, hope and optimism for what’s to come, and I believe it gave that to Yia Yia too.
Here is a picture of Yia Yia from October (and my dad) in Brooklyn at my apartment from brunch:

Here is a picture from this weekend, of my sister and I and Yia Yia’s great grandkids!

And, here is one of James, Lexie and I on our last day in Dallas:

Do you have a similar experience? What did you do that helped? Share your comments below!
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